latest FAQ

Dear KSW,
How have you been? What have you been up too? Missing you lots & lots!
Luv,
ES

Dear ES,
I hate to sound like I am complaining, so I have been a little quiet. Let me preface your reply with the fact that I am very happy in general (maybe not overall). My days have been hectic and it is hard to express them without sounding generally overwhelmed.

I think I will start with my schedule, then perhaps it will make some sense.
Monday. 9AM - arrive @ work for office hours and class prep
11:45 - meeting through lunch (eat crackers from office drawer)
1 - 4. - class
4 - 6. - oversee student assistant
6 pm - 7 - more crackers at desk, prepare for tomorrow's class
7 - 10 - play rehearsal
10 - 11 - see J, finish class prep
12am - 6 am sleep
Tuesday
6-7 hit snooze button futiley. Go to work without shower
7-8 prep for class
8-11 class
11-12 meet with students and staff (could last through lunch till 5!)
12-2 sometimes nap. In office chair.
3-4 office hours and grading
4-6 student assistant
4-5:30. Meetings
7-10 play
Same evening.
Wednesday
Same as Monday
Thursday
Same as Tuesday without meeting, but add independent study student
Friday
Was supposed to be art studio day. Becomes meeting day, student assistant, pick up day.

I have barely finished projects as deadlines approach. I am also looking for a job for next year. Trying to have friends (frankly, the category I used to sacrifice first; now, I sacrifice sleep instead). Still haven't finished my video. Today a man who normally gives me lots of compliments said "you look terrible!" My allergies look like flu syptoms right now. It is only a matter of time before everything shuts down.

Kind of like the economy?

October 1

September 30

September 29

September 28

September 27

My head is floating above my body

Remember the show, Ally McBeal? Toward the end, there was an episode in which she was "walking on air" next to her love interest. That's me, but not over a love interest, and really it's only my head. Picture it. My head floating like a little balloon over my body.

It isn't just I feel disconnected and over-caffeinated, but I just placed my photographic order for my exhibition. The price will be something like three thousand dollars, and I get a little tight chested at the investment!

My first museum group show is opening this weekend (reception next) in San Bernardino. I am sad I won't get to see it.

September 26

September 25

September 24

Really, I am going to make it

I miss my blog. It's so pretty. And nice. Green, and friendly. Right now, it is riddled with days and days of tombstones. That's depressing! I miss carefully plotting the content of these entries. Will I dance for a camera? Record time delayed videos of my hours of working? Will I make drawings based on crazy conversations I over hear? Those were the days, weren't they?

Now I am lucky to plan text. Plain. Boring. Text. And not even interesting narrative text. Just text. Ramblings of a mad man. Most of the text I plan is in my head as I am walking from point A to point B. It never makes it to the computer. (Forget all those times I have used the physical page... the days of the sketchbook diary are far behind me.)

I haven't even called family in a while. They are likely to think I am dead. Again.

At least there is this. My tiny rock thrown up at the tsunami of the fall.

September 23

September 22

September 21

Futility and angst

I have been rendering video for hours. Apparently videos that look beautiful on the computer screen and on the Internet seek revenge by looking terrible on televisions. Damn you, old techology! Why must I lower my standards to make my work available to the masses!

September 20

September 19

September 18

September 17

September 16